Today I was thinking about how I really wanted to blog. I have several posts in my head at all times, but I’m never able to make the time to blog super regularly. I guess I could if I didn’t sleep, but with two little ones full speed ahead in the ‘terrible two’s’ department with a third child leading the way, I make sure I’m not completely running on empty.
I kind of wanted to share my thought process about how I choose to blog what I blog about so that it may explain some things to you all.
Without sounding super morbid and creepy, I think about my legacy a lot. As I wear my departed grandfather’s sweater, I think about what message I am leaving in this world for my family, friends and anyone I may impact. This blog is part of that for me, to express myself, to write about the things I love and care about and to maybe make a difference if possible. I always have stories in my head that I want to share and blog about but when the time comes for me to actually pick a topic, I have been putting my personal stories aside to share the other things that I think are important. I don’t always feel like my stories are going to be that interesting to everyone else, and while I do write them down to share ONE day, I put them on the back burner so to speak. I guess I will be able to keep up with everything I want to say when I can blog daily, but who knows. I have so much on the list!
So when you see a post about lung cancer, it’s not a blog post filler, it’s something that I have put a lot of thought and energy into. It’s a subject matter that I care deeply about and want to expose. When I write about my friend Eric Lough, it’s not just because he’s my friend, it’s because I believe in his art and want the world to know of him. I really loved my theme days, but with the age of my kids, it has been too difficult for me to keep up with that weekly schedule. I will add posts for the theme days again, but they will be by chance instead of on a schedule. That is the best I can do right now. I’m sure most people don’t care or notice, but it is something I struggle with because I really had a plan that I wanted to stick to and just can’t. If I was a gifted, trained writer I might be able to knock out posts left and right but it takes me quite a while to make a single blog post. It takes me at least an hour if not two to make it just the way I want it. Oh well. It’s a labor of love.
I guess I wanted to share this information with you so that you didn’t think that I was only trying to fill my blog plugging what other people are doing. Since this blog is not even a year old yet, I have been doing what I can, and learning as I go. It has taken a lot of time for me to learn all the ins and outs of this website and trying to incorporate ads, etc. I want to incorporate my family stories on here but I also want to highlight topics and stories that are close to my heart. Stories that may be universal in subject that we all need to know about and think about. There have been readers that have learned about new authors on this blog, maybe there is a person who donates to a great cause because of reading a post on this blog too.
That is what I think about. That is what I want to do. I know it’s small potatoes compared to the millions of other bloggers out there, but I want to know that I take steps to have an authentic life and legacy full of love, passion and sincerity.
Just so you know.